Date: Fri, 12 Jul 2002 10:51:04 -0500 From: "Charles Reed"
Subject: Re: (urth) Suicide & Despair But why would fighting to protect himself drive Silk to despair? He killed the Talus and although he felt guilty about it, he didn't despair. He smacked Musk a wrapping good blow with his cane and apparently didn't feel all that bad about it (although he didn't kill Musk). He sliced Blood in two with his azoth and didn't fall into despair. In fact, the only time I can remember Silk really losing himself in despair is the scene where he and Horn are on top of the Trivigaunti airship. I've never really been sure of my reading of that scene, but it always seemed to me that his despair rose up out seeing the many and casual ways in which people deceive and hurt one another. I believe he told Horn that he had been focusing on all the evil that other people do to each other instead of focusing on the evil in his own heart, and that this misdirected and misguided focus is what led him to despair. I know that was "twenty years ago" and that perhaps Silk has become more hyper-sensitive to violence in the intervening years, but I just can't buy into the notion that his despair springs from his having defended Hyacinth or himself from some attacker. The only way I could see this happening is if it was Hyacinth herself whom Silk had killed, but I don't believe that could have happened either. If I remember correctly (sorry, I don't have my books with me) Hyacinth was already in her coffin when Horn's consciousness was transferred into Silk's body, which I take to mean (given the relative isolation of their house) that they had known for some time that Hyacinth was ill, and that they were prepared for it when it came. Perhaps Silk even built the coffin himself (like they did in Faulkner's creepy novel, AS I LAY DYING). It seems to me that the most logical explanation for Silk's despair is that Hyacinth had been dying for some time, and while she was still alive Silk was able to busy his mind with her care. But when she was dead, and placed in the box, and Silk found himself utterly alone in the Whorl, his grief and loneliness overcame him. I haven't made up my mind on the question of whether Silk was actually trying to commit suicide or was merely whaling away at himself in grief-induced madness (I tend to favor the latter explanation), but I also think that it doesn't really matter. His emotions had overwhelmed him and he didn't know how to go on. Just my two cents. Charles (who needs a cool moniker to go by) James Jordan wrote: > ... ... > >I just had a horrid thought: all this talk about arm > >wounds, a lack of memory of how they got that way and > >the carriage of a weapon reminds me of a murder in San > >Diego years ago (I grew up there); is it possible that > >Silk/Horn killed someone with that knife and the > >wounds are the result of his victim fighting back? > > Well, yes. That's just what I think happened. He was defending his > house and his wife and himself. The horror of having killed someone (or at > least wounded him and driven him off) + the death of Hyacinth -- well, > that's enough for Silk to despair. > But I may be wrong. > > Nutria --